Boy, this week has been one of those weeks where a cave to hide in would have been greatly welcomed. While I was looking for a good place to physically escape I opened up a book and there is it was, Vairagyam, the word sitting in front of my eyes.
At that moment I realized I was so driven by avidya (yes, all balled into one big lurching emotional mess: ego, fear, attachment, refusal, all leading to total misunderstanding of the situation/condition). The breath that came when I saw that word was almost, well, load lifting from my heart and mind. In a moment I was able to set so much down and for the first time in 5 days, sit in a meditation practice that brought a calm mind & heart. Just seeing the word reminded me of the yoga journey I am on and to get back on the road. One foot in front of me at a time. Not always perfect, but unrelenting in practice: Abhyasa (effort, practice, seat of the pants stick-tuidenss) and Vairagya (acceptance, letting go, not being driven by external forces).
Its good to be back on track.